I’ve always been in favour of a more open dialogue that surrounds mental health. As a sufferer from mental illness, it can be really difficult and sometimes, even depressing, to be open about the fact that no, you can’t come hang out because you haven’t showered in 4 days and don’t have any motivation to get out of bed, let alone socialise. Although more and more people are being diagnosed with mental illness, with 1 in 5 Australians alone being diagnosed with anxiety or depression, you’d think that more and more people would be open and understanding about it all.
I’ve been really quite lucky with the people I surround myself with, as when I was really bad, they would always be understanding and there for me when I was going through the dark days. If you don’t know or haven’t been through the dark days before, count yourself lucky.
It’s honestly so difficult to keep on living when your brain wants to die, but it’s programmed in your body to wake up and want to do things each morning. It’s crawling into bed after a 8 hour shift at work and just not moving until you exhaust yourself into sleeping because socialising and just being around people was too much for you that one day. It’s not showering because you can’t motivate yourself to leave your bed. It’s having absolutely no regard for your studies or personal appearance, because you’re hopefully going to be gone soon, so what’s the point in making plans anytime soon?
I would like to point out that this was just my experience. I’m not lurking other people’s blogs to see if they’ve gone through the same thing have, because even though depression and anxiety are cruel mothers, they all have different ways of doling out their punishments on people.
Therefore, I am obviously all for Mental Health Week and the possibility of an open conversation that desperately needs to happen surrounding mental health and just, living really. Although there is more people talking about mental health and being open about their experiences, it’s still not really understood on a professional level. I can’t just message my boss and be like ‘hey, sorry, can’t come in today, I want to die’, because that’s a very personal thing to message your employer, and it’s also seen as unprofessional to be open about how you’re feeling. I dunno how to make mental health issues understood by employers, so if you guys have any tips, please let me know!